I'm 34 years old and I've got two small children. All their constant needs and demands overwhelm me, and I end up spending most of my days in a stupor.
When I start to lose control of my temper, I retreat to my bed for a few days, getting up only if I absolutely have to for a short time.
I've tried all the recommended bipolar medications such as lithium, depakote, geodon, and many antidepressents, but my doctor agrees with me that the side effects were way too intense for me, so she just has me taking some OTC B vitamins %26amp; omega 3 supplements, and exercise and sunshine. But when I'm feeling in the dumps I simply can't take care of myself.
Thankfully I have a husband who holds the family together as well as he can, but I have no feelings for him whatsoever (he loves me though, for that I'm grateful). In fact, I feel no emotional connection with anyone at all. I prefer to be alone, I reject all frienships and extended family relationships (although from time to time I make an effort to at least feign some sort of caring feelings).
I'm acutely aware how different I am and that I don't belong anywhere. I'm pretty much just looking forward to death.
But I want to know, how do other people deal with their BP disorders? Does anyone have any suggestions how I can feel better? Please only BP sufferers answer. I don't want to hear from anyone who doesn't personally understand what it's like to have this illness.To people with bipolar disorder: how do you live with it on a daily basis?
I don't really see myself as bipolar anymore.
It becomes a natural part of your life (for me anyways)
and the people around me are used to it or adjusted.To people with bipolar disorder: how do you live with it on a daily basis?
I've felt that way many times. I to gave up the meds.. And there are times of the year .when I feel extremely down.. I look at it this way.. My family needs me.. My husband .. like yours does all he can to help .. I kept a journal.. and I wrote how I felt and what was going through my thoughts.. And each day I wrote down the bright spots in my day.. Sometimes ..they didn't amount to much.. I also set steps for my self.. Like .. do a load of laundry.. and force myself to wash it.. dry it . fold it .. and put it away.. An easy task for a non depressed person.. Not so easy when your brain runs off in a dozen different directions. Any how I think you get the jist... You need to know.. that there are a good many going though this,, you are not alone.. And remember the man that loves you enough to stand by you and take care of things.. And try very hard to get better..
1. I spend time every day doing something that i am passionate about, which is building my website.
2. I spend time every day doing something i enoy, which is painting.
3. I have a medication that helps me sleep.
Check out www.depressiondodging.com for tips on how to deal with bipolar disorder and depression. Join me on facebook if you want to belong somewhere. My name on there is Aleksandr Depression Dodging.
Good luck and don't give up on yourself.
well i am 40 and dealing with bipolar, PTSD, anxiety, insomnia. With out my husband as well I don't think I could go on with my life. I though unfortunately have decided that I do need to take my meds. If I don't I will go do stupid things that cause very difficult problems. My husband has a lot to do with me dealing with my manic/depression phases. We developed a plan like when I get manic and want to go out and be wild and free he stops me no matter what it takes even if I get pissed off at him. He then finds a way to make me calm down and forget that I wanted to go out. We then spend time watching movies. When I am depressed he brings me food to our bed, double checks to make sure that I take my meds, makes me get out for some sun, takes me for a ride and mind you I don't want to do these things. But that is what we do to go through my life as a bipolar. If you ever want to talk email me at kytteneys@yahooo.com
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